In just one more week, we will be thinking about the events that happened in 2001. It will be September 11th all over again, and we will all remember the tragedy that we all experienced. To me, September 11th will take on a new meaning this year! The 11th, we will celebrate the 10th month anniversary since our daughter's type 1 diabetes diagnosis. We're going to be hitting the 10th on the 11th.
When I think about November 11th, many feelings come back to my mind. However, the common denominator throughout the last almost 10 months of our lives, has been peace. Despite the challenges, we have tackled this head on. And the walls of our hearts have been challenged, shaken, but have not crumbled. In fact, more than ever, I feel like few things could challenge my heart to the point where it will break and crumble.
Without a doubt, I am NOT the person on the hot seat! My 3 year old daughter has been the one riding the wave based on insulin, needles, test strips, etc. It has been a ride. It makes me think of a pipeline. How it can feel like it's a never ending tunnel. I'm sure that surfers, when they are running the waves, they feel like the pipeline is never going to end. I wonder if in the mist of the pipeline, they think about the darkness and the lights and the contrast between one another. I can tell you, for sure that the last 10 months have been filled with those contrasts of light and darkness. However, we have always been filled with great peace and light in our hearts.
Most recently, I was asking my daughter to come close to me so that I can give her her final shot for that day. I was so blown away when she said: "Thanks for my shot mommy!" That moment, I felt like we had really turned a corner. It was incredible! I was just so amazed at the fact that she is grateful for her shots. I don't think she completely understands what it all means; she's too young. Meanwhile, I do feel like in the last 10 months we have built a strong and firm foundation that she will continue to build on herself.
In the last few months, she has continued to adjust. I have heard her say "no thanks" many times to food. I'm so proud of my little one! I am so grateful for her. And now, with the 10th coming on the 11th, I feel like I love her more than ever.
Everyday that goes on, we drive on simple concepts of life. These are: structure, consistency, measuring, adjusting, quiet times, much nourishment, talking to each other and communicating, making sure we stay on time, diligence... All of these simple concepts rule of our life. Diabetes sets the tone and the pace in our lives. To many people this might sound like the most dreary picture, but we are so grateful for them! They keep us in line. They keep us safe. They keep us healthy. It is just incredible how much of a difference we feel when we are making an effort to let consistency and diligence rule our life. Structure and scheduling has never meant the world to us until the last year. I am so grateful that, before we countered this great challenge, I was able to learn these skills and to embrace them. I feel so lucky. I feel so blessed.
Welcome 10th! We are waiting for you.
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